I must admit something and be honest. For the past few weeks I have not blogged because honestly I have not had anything positive to write. Obviously not because I don't have anything positive going on.....geez because there are SO many wonderful things going on in my life, but because I have had a negative attitude. Every time I would try to blog all I could think about was how awful I felt and how miserable I was being pregnant. I can't bare to be that negative person....but the fact is, I was.
Pregnancy has been HARD for me. (let me complain for just a sec) All day, every day all I could think about was puking. I haven't even been throwing up that much, just gagging ALL day....but I would think, "would it make me feel better, could I if I tried, do I want to, do i think i could eat so-and-so without, am I just hungry, if I ate would it help....but of course the other problem was I couldn't eat...besides jello and ice cream. The hunger made me nauseous, the nausea kept me from eating.
Tired....the kinda tired you feel after a good work out, no...the kinda tired you feel after a long day's work, no......the kinda tired you feel when you haven't slept in a while, no.....it's a different kind of tired that's unexplainable and complete lack of energy. I didn't touch anything at the house. The smallest chores were left undone. Desire to do ANYTHING..gone.
Now to SOME degree I can handle this (or maybe not)....BUT......here comes what has been the hardest part. Headaches. I have always, well since my 20's, struggled with headaches. Well now I can't take anything but Tylenol. I'm sorry but Tylenol doesn't but a dent in my headaches. Headaches are something I can't handle, I like to think that I can be tough...when i have a cold, an injury, i can even handle nausea, but headaches cripple me. I can't function. I believe they are sinus headaches and recently I have had a headache that lasted for about 6 days. In fact, the only time I actually threw up, I believe was from the sinus headache/maybe migraine.
Did I want to die...maybe a little. Basically I wanted to sleep my life away. Not necessarily because I was tired or needed the sleep but because I would rather sleep than live....sad, but true at the time.
For the past couple days I feel kinda normal again!!!!! Yes, it's true, I can't believe it and I have never been so thankful in my life!! I don't know if I am getting over the first tri-mester, or if it's just a small moment in time that I feel ok....all i know is right now I am just grateful for being able to feel like MYSELF right now. Yesterday I did more at home in two hours than I did in 2 weeks. I am so thankful for this moment of sanity and I just pray it will last. I want to actually ENJOY being pregnant.
I'm sorry for the complaining. I guess I feel like it's ok to vent now because I don't feel like this at the moment. I just want to express my gratitude today!!!
I have my life back...if only for a moment!
Have a Happy Hump Day Wednesday!!
5 years ago
8 comments:
I'm so sorry to hear that you haven't been feeling well. I have heard that after the 1st trimester things should start looking a little brighter. I will definitely be praying for that!! It's ok to complain that's what we're here for! Do what you can and DON'T stress about the rest, it will be there when you can function again. I"m with you on headaches and to me Tylenol is pointless too! I love you and will be praying for you and please call me if there is anything else I can do! Love you girl!
You sound JUST like I felt the first 3 months and Kat, I PROMISE it gets SO much better. Advice for the headaches: Drink huge glasses of water. Sure they'll make you pee a lot, but it helped my headaches go away. You get more dehydrated being preggo and that can give you headaches which won't go away. and I agree: TYLENOL SUCKS!
I have so much more energy now, no gagging, and I ENJOY being pregnant. I thought I would never feel good and I'm SO glad I do. I pray you start feeling better now that you are entering the 2nd trimester. Let me know if I can help!
AWWWW Kat. My heart goes out to you... it really does. I feel your pain, except for the headaches. I'm SO sorry you have been feeling so bad! Not going to lie though... the second trimester (so far) has proved harder for me than the first
:( We hear these moms saying it will get better but honestly I want to punch them in the face ;) JK! It's bound to get better so hang in there and know you aren't alone.
And I feel you about blogging... it's hard to think (much less type) about anything else but feeling like crap. Maybe one day we will be the radiant pregnant women we hear and read about! Hope you start feeling better SOON!
You know the saying "you don't mess with a pregnant woman"! Hang in there. It gets better. AND, your Bible Verse for the Day meant SO much to me reading it tonight after 10+ days in ER, ICU and the hospital with my mother! I love to come here and read the Bible Verse for the day. Thanks for that!
aw Kat I'm sorry. I didn't have the headaches or nausea really but the extreme tiredness I can TOTALLY identify with with. My mom kept telling me early early on that I just shouldn't be this tired this early... it was no surprise that I was having twins when we found out. Have yall ruled out multiples??????
I'm so sorry you have felt rotten! But you are not the only pregnant woman to feel nauseous, tired and have headaches! I'm hoping as you get closer to your 2nd trimester, you will feel lots better! Try drinking lots of water when you get a headache and see if that helps. It's not really fun for everyone to be pregnant, but it's worth it eventually, after you have felt like you've been pregnant forever!
hang in there sister!
love you!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so sorry I haven't congratulated you until now. I have been so lax about checking blogs and email for that matter lately. I am so excited for you! Tell me all about it. When is the baby due? Do you have any names picked out? Did you guys plan to get pregnant or was this just a happy miracle (cause there are no accidents where babies are concerned). Are you just out of your mind thrilled about this?
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