New Beginning....

This has been a very special weekend. On Friday Bradfield and I closed on some land. So we are now land owners...which is exciting for us. (there are some very scary things that come along with this of course:)) But the neat part is that this is a "new beginning" for us. This is where we plan to live and eventually build our home. This is where we plan to raise our family and create so many special memories. There is so much meaning behind the land.

This weekend we spent some time working on the land. Draining the pond (or trying), clearing trees, taking down fence and getting ready to build a road. We have lot of work ahead of us, but the neat thing about it is that we are working to build "our lives"...."our home" I have done a lot of work like this in the past but it has always been for my dad and the work seems no different, but it is.....it's different, kinda weird, but great!

I will try to get some pictures and post soon!

Summer Begins....almost!

Today is the first day of exams, this means school is ALMOST over. Even though I feel like I am going to blink and we will be starting again. And I don't know if I will ever feel like it ended because I will be at the school so much over the summer....i am still relieved!

This summer is going to be big. If we can get everything worked out, we will be moving to Hope Hull, which is home for me. HOME...I love that word. I love that place! There is a lot that must get done before that can happen, which makes "summer" a little overwhelming.

I will do my best to keep updating the blog about how the summer tasks are going, but I will be honest....part of what keeps me into blogging is work. I am in front of the computer a lot at work, and the blogging is a "get-a-way"....when I am away from the office I am not consistent about sitting down at the computer. But I will try.

As for me....I am doing good! :) yay!
Maybe not feeling great...but definitely feeling OK. And that is good enough for me. The headaches are not as constant and not as bad. I have ups and downs....but atleast having some ups makes the downs not so bad. I really think things are looking up!

Happy Memorial Day!!!

GREAT Weekend!

Last Friday afternoon for the first time in a few weeks, I was headache free....Saturday, Sunday, headache free. This made for a fabulous weekend!!! I was all smiles all weekend, it was like I had my life back. I got to see some of my best friends I had not seen in a while and had more fun than I thought I could have being pregnant! It was awesome, a busy weekend, but great!

Today I have a slight headache again, but it's not too bad. I really think everything is looking up for me.

School is winding down, we have 2 more weeks. A lot of big things coming up and big changes in my life even before the baby comes...and a lot of weddings and things in between. I have something on my calendar for almost every weekend until...well maybe all summer.

Life has kinda gotten stressful...maybe not stressful, but crazy. But more and more I realize how blessed I am....with family and friends and support and just great people all around me. .....and well, most of all, I've been given the greatest gift on earth....a baby, what can be better.

I appreciate every one's comments on my blog...some from people I barely even know.....but feel like I do. :)...some from people I know so well, and the littlest words make the biggest difference.

Baby update:
I had another appointment, it was the first time they tried to listen to the heartbeat with the Doppler, the nurse was having a hard time finding it so she sent me down for an ultrasound just to make sure everything was ok (which was a little scary, but i got to see the baby again:))
Everything was fine and normal.

I hope everyone has a wonderful week!

Today, I am ME

I must admit something and be honest. For the past few weeks I have not blogged because honestly I have not had anything positive to write. Obviously not because I don't have anything positive going on.....geez because there are SO many wonderful things going on in my life, but because I have had a negative attitude. Every time I would try to blog all I could think about was how awful I felt and how miserable I was being pregnant. I can't bare to be that negative person....but the fact is, I was.


Pregnancy has been HARD for me. (let me complain for just a sec) All day, every day all I could think about was puking. I haven't even been throwing up that much, just gagging ALL day....but I would think, "would it make me feel better, could I if I tried, do I want to, do i think i could eat so-and-so without, am I just hungry, if I ate would it help....but of course the other problem was I couldn't eat...besides jello and ice cream. The hunger made me nauseous, the nausea kept me from eating.

Tired....the kinda tired you feel after a good work out, no...the kinda tired you feel after a long day's work, no......the kinda tired you feel when you haven't slept in a while, no.....it's a different kind of tired that's unexplainable and complete lack of energy. I didn't touch anything at the house. The smallest chores were left undone. Desire to do ANYTHING..gone.

Now to SOME degree I can handle this (or maybe not)....BUT......here comes what has been the hardest part. Headaches. I have always, well since my 20's, struggled with headaches. Well now I can't take anything but Tylenol. I'm sorry but Tylenol doesn't but a dent in my headaches. Headaches are something I can't handle, I like to think that I can be tough...when i have a cold, an injury, i can even handle nausea, but headaches cripple me. I can't function. I believe they are sinus headaches and recently I have had a headache that lasted for about 6 days. In fact, the only time I actually threw up, I believe was from the sinus headache/maybe migraine.

Did I want to die...maybe a little. Basically I wanted to sleep my life away. Not necessarily because I was tired or needed the sleep but because I would rather sleep than live....sad, but true at the time.

For the past couple days I feel kinda normal again!!!!! Yes, it's true, I can't believe it and I have never been so thankful in my life!! I don't know if I am getting over the first tri-mester, or if it's just a small moment in time that I feel ok....all i know is right now I am just grateful for being able to feel like MYSELF right now. Yesterday I did more at home in two hours than I did in 2 weeks. I am so thankful for this moment of sanity and I just pray it will last. I want to actually ENJOY being pregnant.

I'm sorry for the complaining. I guess I feel like it's ok to vent now because I don't feel like this at the moment. I just want to express my gratitude today!!!

I have my life back...if only for a moment!

Have a Happy Hump Day Wednesday!!