Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Who wants to be older anyway?

So, I feel that I am doomed for a lifetime of crappy birthdays. But that would only be if I looked at it in a negative way. But let me just be negative for a minute.

When I look back, starting at my first birthday I spent in college, I have had the worst days. I can remember exactly that day when the reality hit me that my birthday was just another day. I was playing basketball at Huntingdon and of course Jan 5 during basketball season we had practice. But not only that, I remember being stuck at that school all day with the basketball team and then instead of going home to have a birthday dinner with my parents, having to bag groceries to raise money. I was ok with that. I don't have to have a perfect birthday, but that day I grew up and realized my birthday wasn't going to be a magical day.

Ever since then it seems the day just can't be good. I mean, what do I expect it is almost always the first day back to school and we always have a basketball game. Last year was hopeful, the 5th fell on Saturday. There's no way they can make me go back to school this year. I am spending time with friends who came in town to see me...when i have two basketball parents call me and chew me out. Answering a phone call, thinking maybe someone is calling me to wish me happy birthday, I have to listen to 2 parents be unthinkably and undeservedly ugly to me. Why couldn't they have waited till Monday, why couldn't they have compassion, why couldn't they screw their heads on right and realize they are being wrong. Of course, all I could do was cry all day, company, birthday get together and all. This year, first day back to work/school...ok, basketball, ok, we won........speeding ticket on they way home, not ok. No matter how good we have it, and we know it, sometimes you just can't help but only see the negative. I did that last night. But you know what........I really had a good birthday. I have a wonderful husband that cooked a great meal for me last night and wanted so bad for my birthday to be good. I have parents that love me so much. And I have friends, friends that try every year to have a party for me, despite it being nearly impossible because of timing and location. (carolyn, love you!), friends that dedicate a whole blog to me (laurel, made my day).....and friends that can turn my day around. I'm not the biggest fan of facebook, but seeing all the birthday wishes last night, that was about the only thing that could put a smile on my face last night after getting a ticket 10 min earlier, and it did. All the birthday wishes mean the world to me. It is amazing what those simple words and that thoughtfulness can do for a person.
So thank you for allowing me to be negative about birthdays and thank you for brightening it up. Because I can be as negative as i want to be but I still know, LIFE is good :)

I just protest Birthdays:)

4 comments:

Laurel said...

look at Bradfield getting all sweet & domestic!!! what did he cook?

I forgot about all that drama last year!! :( that WAS horrible. carol and i were about ready to STRANGLE those folks.

i LOVED the burned lasgna & bonfire/housefire!! and besides the pictures sure were cute! ;)

The Bean said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY A DAY LATE KAT!

Kat said...

Yes...Bradfield was really sweet. He grilled some deer steaks made a spinach salad. It was really good. He is a pretty good cook actually.

Yeah, I have some awesome birthday memories and I am truly not as negative as I sound...it is just so funny how something like that seems to always happen.

Call me sometime when you get a chance. I would love to catch up. You are not going to be in town any time soon by chance are you?

Sherry said...

I hate it when I get a ticket no matter what day it is! I wish you a future of no-hassle and wonderful birthdays! You deserve it! NOTE: I have the same kind of husband you do - he's so sweet to cook a lot!